i have tons to say but i don't know how to say it.

anyway HI ALL :)
makes me wonder whether all of you actually read this.
i know a handful do, and some just drop by periodically and some don't drop by at all.
but it's okay.

and now as we're all in the midst of preparing for promos, this empty space once occupied by training is a good time to reflect on training, the team, etc and at the same time to aspire and prepare ourselves for the next leg of training, which is the most important may i add.

and it's so easy to have these visions, to know at the back of your head this is what you want, to say you want the gold, you want to train hard.
but it's an entirely different matter all together when it concerns the REAL DEAL.

and i guess i just want to say how i'm so glad we have progressed as a team, as friends, but also how unhappy i am that we have stagnated in other areas.

we all have a common goal which is to win the gold next year.
we also have other common goals which is to build up this team, that we leave not only as teammates and friends, but pillars of support.

and somehow training the past few months have stagnated in the sense that our goals became blurry.
we lived and breathed more as individuals.
we focussed too much on what we couldn't do.
we saw what we couldn't achieve.
we relied too much on past skills and standards and in comparison to now, we felt disappointed.
we compared the past too much to now.
but what you and i can't do, can't see, can't feel, WE CAN DO TOGETHER.

this is probably coming too early, considering there is still a good 4 and a half weeks or slightly more before training resumes.
but then.. i guess i just wanted to say this because we don't seem to be moving anywhere.
and i wanted all of us to use this time to reflect on the past few months of training wisely, and mentally prepare ourselves and set goals for the next leg of training.
i wanted all of us to prepare our hearts to bind as one.
that we do the things we do, not only for ourselves, but for each other.
because if one loses, it's not just your own loss, but the whole team loses with you.
so let's be winners together.

let's revive this team.
let's not remember how tired we feel, let's not remember how we cannot match up to our old skills or so-and-so that has improved so much.
let us be a new and fresh team and start anew.
let's forget about how it used to be, but let's create something new and special together.
because i want every single one of us to leave with a memory that's too special to forget and bonds that are too strong to break.

so ohwell i guess that's all.
for now STUDY HARD EVERYONE!